Its so funny when your making plans that you think you’ve in control. But when God is in control your choices are to submit to his plan or try yours and fail.

For the first time in my adult life serving Christ, I’ve decided to put my all into letting God have control over everything in my life. What do I mean by this? I’m trying things God’s way.

Plans Change

In 2009 I create my 1st vision board. I created a vision of what I believed God would do in my life in the current and future. I had a small seed of faith that God would allow me to get married, have a family, own a home, graduate college and just be a boss woman.

Over the last ten years, my faith in God has grown. With each item on my vision board becoming my reality it also came along with its own season and trails of change of how I thought I would become this woman.

In October 2018, my husband and I became homeowners. Another item to cross off the 2009 vision board list. Amping up our faith in God we aim to become radical in our faith for our new home. The timeline for becoming homeowners changed for us. We thought we would reach that level of ownership when we were a little older in a settle home location.

Our plans change, 2018 was our homeownership year. Our faith in God had changed along with our season. Being a household of two incomes, a family of two. We thought we were living large. Then the tradeoff happen. God blessed us with our home in my husband’s hometown. Which meant I needed to resign from my job.

It was going to be my first time since married I was going to be jobless. I didn’t know how long it would be. I went through a tidal wave of feelings, one, in particular, was losing my financial independence.

This didn’t make sense to us. Why would God bless us with a new home, reling on one income to take care of all our needs?

I was sacred. It was going to be my first time allowing my husband to take care of me. This was hard for me. I was stress about our house bills, his personal bills and my own. I was stress about our lifestyle change from what we grew accustomed to with two incomes. I was afraid that I really was going to have to trust God and that he could supply “All my needs.”

We sprung into action, counting our savings divided how many months we could go without two incomes. We started putting in job applications for me. Planning like responsible adults who just brought their first home would do. The key word was what We were doing all we could do and brenching our best asset aka God. When I left my job in November to join my husband in our new home. I decide to really try things God’s way.

I’m not going to lie, submitting to God has been a challenge for me. During this Jobless, homeownership season the phrase “God, will supply all my needs.” has been the replayed in my mind every day. Every time a job denial letter is received in my inbox, I’m a little sad but I know God has me because that not my job. What God has for you is for you, I tell myself.

Every time the bills come in the mail, I thank God that we have money that month to pay them because of him. Every time my husband feels the pitch of putting out money on unexpected things, I’m grateful that I can place my stress at God’s feet and he is working behind the sence for us. I have to believe God is real. I have to trust that God knows what he is doing.

I have failed trying to do things on my own. What do I have to lose with trying God to the fullest? My answer is I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.