Freedom-Stage 5

Set Free

I went to church one night.  God had called for a repentance I found myself getting up. I felt my mouth open and words spilling out “I want God to forgive me for being disobedient to my parents, being mean, not waiting on him and fornicating,.” I think I shocked everyone that night cause I shocked myself. I had no idea I was going to confess out loud my greatest sin. But though that the words made my salutation real. My relationship with God was made closer. God told me that I would know the man he had made for me when I see him.

That if I trusted him(God) and wait on him(God) that it wouldn’t take long for him(the love of my life) to find me. When I heard that I was elated. God allowed me to see him( my mate) but not his face in a dream. My hopes were perked back up. I committed myself and everything I did to God. I changed my number, I went out less, I prayed more not just for a man. But for a man after God’s own heart. I prayed for my future. I thank God that he spared me from my past and that my husband would forgive me for not waiting on him.

I forgave myself and wrote myself letters, and God letters. I sought after God in every way I could. Not because I wanted a man, I was ready to know God for myself. I was ready to be closer to him. I wasn’t going to let anything or anyone come in between my new relationship with God. I needed him for myself. God letting my mate find me when the time came was just extra icing. I felt stronger, happier, healed. I was reborn. Set Free.

I don’t mind sharing my story because these are things that have made me. It’s my hope that I can help another lost person out there, who thinks that for all the bad they have done there is no hope for them. That’s a lie. I felt that way. I was getting loose and lost out in the world but just as much as God loved me HE loves you too. God doesn’t hold grudges, he has already forgotten your sins.  Now it’s time for you to do the same. Have your relationship with God. Forgive yourself and move on to what God has in store for you. Stop whipping on yourself for what you done. It’s over. Let God set you free.

“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV