Wait on the lord – Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him

Waiting on the Lord is so hard to do. When you’re so busy looking at what is happening to other people. With all these social media outlooks, a person can become overwhelmed, consumed, discouraged and depressed about the smoke screen for others. Watching and reading others peoples rewards. These things make it harder to stay the course that God has outlined for you to complete. I know from experience. When I was in my undergrad program I was so busy reading posts on FaceBook and watching Instagram, I almost lost my own purpose that God gave to me.

God opened up the door for me to go to the college. Not just any college… but an HBCU. After years of watching the It’s a Different World.  I got my chance to be in a HBCU world.  I almost blow it. So busy reading the lives story of others on Facebook and wanting to do what they were doing. I was failing at my own goals. Keeping myself from waiting on the Lord. It was bad, I was dating my husband at the time. When I would see someone get engaged I would bring it up to him in hopes it would motivated him to ask. When I would see someone doing an internship I stressed myself out and emotional whip on myself, for not achieving the grades I needed to do that internship. I began to set unrealistic goals for myself for things I didn’t even want. Setting myself up for failure, stressing, derailing myself from waiting and staying on my course that God had plotted out for me.

I woke up. I was failing out of school. My homework was covering what was going on with everyone else and how God was blessing them and moving in their lives. I was failing God, not waiting on the design he had for ME.

I woke up, realizing that everyone else’s dreams and goals were not the goals that I wanted for myself. They were not my thoughts nor my desires. “But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;” Isaiah 40:31. I woke up in time (granted it was my senior year) renew, ready to stay the course. I needed to be real with myself. I never wanted to become an accountant working in the accounting field. God told me to get the Accounting degree. I just ran with the other stuff not seeing that there was another purpose for having this degree that would open doors. It wasn’t my time (at that time) to be married and settled with a family. It was my time to wait on the Lord. To focus on the assignment that he gave me.

To trust God and wait knowing that God wasn’t going to forget me. That my needs, wants would be answered if I handle my OWN business. I’m not saying that I got all the answers. I still find myself looking over FB to see how my peeps are doing. I’m just not letting what God doing for you sway me from what GOD is going and is doing for me.

I thought about it, personally, I don’t want your goals or your desires. I don’t want to have to put in the work, time and energy (the struggle) you’re putting in to get it what God has ordained for you. I don’t want to be taught the lesson God is teaching you for the path in your life. I want to work on the things he wants me to labor on for my path. To be about our father’s business in the manner he sees fit for me. Therefore I will continue to wait on the Lord, continuing to rejoice in the milestone you reach in your journey with God. Praising God for the success he has placed in your life. That’s my job, to stay in my lane. So let’s all wait on the Lord for what he has plan for our own unique paths. Continuing to uplift each other. Your success is mine and mine is yours. I figure staying in our own lanes, will bring us closer to God’s desires for us. “For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it will not delay.” Habakkuk 2:3

Xxo,

Indigo-cuz I don’t know how to be anybody else but myself!