“You are never left alone when you are alone with God.”  Woodrow Kroll

When I turned my life over to God, trusting that he had me. I gave up dating for a while. I wanted God to know that I was serious about him blessing me with my husband, so I made a committed to him, and myself. I knew in my heart that God was going to bring me my husband, so I felt no need to go out chasing men that weren’t going to put a ring on my finger.

Dating myself became a process because I so used to getting dress and going out with the intent to attractive a man. Major of the times I went out with some of my male companions because I didn’t want to be alone or I didn’t want to pay for myself. There were times I didn’t have any money for dinner and having someone that wanted to treat me was always nice.

I put my heart in God’s hands and trust that he had me. That was it! He had me. I don’t have to call anyone to be my dating connect to the supply my entertainment needs. God was my only supplier.

Trusting God

I didn’t have a rule book on dating myself.  As I began to trust God, alone doesn’t affect me as I once let it. At first, I was like “I can’t go to the movies by myself. I’ll feel like a loser.”

I couldn’t stop my love of watching movies end because I didn’t have any one to go with me. So I got dress one day, I tired of being in the house, not wanting to go back to my old ways of calling up old boos. I was willing to do something different for myself. The more I exercise my trusted in God I found myself in the movies by myself and walked out feeling great because I didn’t feel like I owed anyone anything because they took me to the movies.

My confidence in who I was alone made me stronger. I started going out to eat by myself. Enjoying the meal. I could order whatever I wanted and eat how I wanted. I enjoyed my company. I got the chance to enjoy a whole meal without stressing who was going to pick up the check. I knew it would be me, but it was okay because I was only paying for me.

How to Date Yourself while waiting on God

So going to the movies and treating myself to dinner were some of the ways that I dated myself as I was waiting on God to send me my husband. Before I gave everything to God, the hold help that took so long was that I didn’t trust God with my desire for a mate because I felt that it was taking so long to meet my husband.

As I started to get out of my head, turning the control over to God and trying him to see what he could do for me. Allowed me the opportunity to have free time to get to know me. I not only tried going to the movies and dinner by myself but I also really tried God and owned up to my part that I had played in prolonging the life God wanted me to have.

Letters, talking and praying

I stated to write God letters; I would start out my day, and by the time I was done writing all the pain store up in my heart, it was release in my letter to God. I release my angry at myself for things I did to myself or allow done to me. I wrote to God about my hopes. My fears that I would never get married or about what I would like in a husband. I wrote God about my ambitious to be what he created me to be.

The more I wrote God, the more I talked to him through the pages of those letters. Then I started taking those confessions into prayer with me and laying them before God and giving him all that was me. I was becoming different because I was expecting a different result that I never demand myself. I gave God me and he gave me back to myself healed.

Prayer allowed me to communicate and submit to God’s will for myself. I was ready to date myself. If I felt like going dancing, I’d call up my girls and went dancing. Not looking for any man but just to celebrate me. I went traveling. I didn’t have to wait for a man. Dating myself, enable me to create a new vision for myself. My drive to serve God was renewed. I was happier because I wasn’t trying to please any men.

The LORD is the one who is going ahead of you. He will be with you. He won’t abandon you or leave you. So don’t be afraid or terrified.

Deuteronomy 31:8

–Indigo