The night I gave everything to God was the night my life changed. I was committed and ready for a new change. A new beginning.

Hearing my Cries and send my mate

God, he heard me. And I felt the changed he was doing in me. Due to me becoming committed to Him. I was sold out for God. I’m not going to lie; there were some failed attempts. I looked at it like this. If I could committed myself to a person that I wasn’t really into me. Why couldn’t I committed to God who loves me and with me having everything to gain.

Hard looks and real answers

When I finally took the time to understand what it meant to become committed to God I was able to ask why I felt the need to be married.
Being still and taking time for myself and becoming committed to God gave me the understand why I was still single and why I wanted to get married. I was single because I was my worst enemy. Now where in the bible does it say “she that findeth a good man findeth a husband.” To be married to have to be ready to be submissive to God and his will for your life.

I wanted to be married because I knew that I was someone wife and not just a girlfriend, wifey or baby mama or girl with benefits. I was ready to be love and joined with the person that was to become my mate.

Reasons for singleness

I look back at my actions and see a young woman that wanted to have the same love and relationship she saw growing up seeing her parents. I wasn’t ready to put in the time or commitment to get it when I was in my 20’s getting that 30-year itch bug.
I watched a video of last week of a Young man named Derrick Jaxn explaining the reason why he was still single. That pretty much sums up the dating world right now. The points he made were that women now a days are

1. Savages,
2. Have a starting ling up,
3. Juggling so many things that they have no time to put into the relationship or him to show him that they want more than a hot few sec.

I can agree with him on when I was in my 20’s. I said I wanted a relationship, but I enjoyed dating and getting to meet new people. Then when my itch bug came nagging at me, I wanted to get married.

Savage behavior

In today’s social, it is so easy to demand what we want. Because we want it now! We live in a Drive-thru culture. Where you can pull up to the window and order what you want and if you don’t want the item that comes with your meal, then you have the option to pay more for another item or just toss the unwanted item to the side.

We live in a world where women can do what man do being proud of becoming a savage or a beast in the dating world is praised through song.This, my friends, is DATING! If the person you’re dating doesn’t have what you want or act right I have another thang on the side to pass the time.

Muli-tasking

I think when I was single I got lost in wanting love so badly that I, became one of these women Derrick Jaxn was were referring too. I had my starting lineup. When one didn’t act right, he was benched, and I was on to the next, or the next best thing for me at that time. I was slaying my dates from left to right and crying about there not being any “real men” out there for me who had it all together.

The true was that I didn’t take the time to be still and let go of all the pain and angry I was holding on to from what I allow someone else to do to me. I didn’t take the time to be still to listen when God told me he had a mate for me. I didn’t see what he was doing on my behalf. I wasn’t willing to wait.

I was only willing to complain. Why wasn’t I married yet?, God you said you had a mate for me why I didn’t have my mate? Why do I have to wait? I’m going to have to wait a long time because I have to start all over with God. I was looking for the hot pocket version of God.

The fact was God been waiting on me. Like I state earlier I was my enemy because I liked being in my way and doing my thang. The funny thing is that when you really commitment to God, there is no longer your way. It is only his way or else you can wait on the curb for uber.

Look out for Part III coming soon